Goodness, I don’t even really know how to start this post … I just know that it needs to be written + I sure hope it’s coherent! It has been a rollercoaster of emotion for me over here the past couple of weeks + I think I’ve finally come to my senses : )
To begin, I have to say that this post ISN’T about anything major – nothing significant has happened in our lives lately to make me emotional, I think it’s safe to say I’m just an overly emotional human being!! Haha : ) The past couple of weeks have been up + down for me in terms of fear, anxiety, self-doubt, unbelief in our business, comparison … you name it. All those nasty things. In general, I had just been feeling really discouraged (for NO reason!!!). Something I noticed, however, was that whenever I was having one of “those days,” I would consequently receive an email or Facebook message from either a friend or even complete strangers full of encouraging words about our work + business. Those love notes would always come at exactly the right time + make me feel better. Thank you to those people : )
Then, this past weekend at the wedding we shot, we had an opportunity to share our “business story” with some guests who asked how we got started. We had a significant period of time to chat with this couple + I ended up going way in depth about our beginnings to where we are today! It was really refreshing to be asked (+ to share) this story with someone. Once I was done sharing (or talking their ear off – whichever way you look at it!), the husband said to me, “Thanks so much for sharing your heart with us. I just … I had NO idea about how you guys started. I had no idea you struggled, you still have struggles … from the outside looking in, it seems like you’re killing it!!” HA. When he said that to me, I knew I needed to write this post + share with others that although it may AT TIMES look like we are “killing it” – every day, at least one thought creeps into my mind along the lines of “you’re not good enough” … “you didn’t do that good with that shoot” … “you’re never going to make it”… etc. It’s a constant battle!!!! Don’t get me wrong, some days are better than others, but these lies will always be ones I need to combat. I’m sure of it!! As small business owners, we are NOT alone in this battle – YOU reading this, you are not alone. Don’t give up, don’t believe the lies. FIGHT them. Work harder, love selflessly, remember that NO ONE else is YOU. Only you can do exactly what you’re doing!!! And you ARE doing good enough!
I also wanted to set something straight … and THIS is actually the main point of my blog post today. This is not about us. At all. I would be lying, I would be prideful + selfish if I didn’t make SURE it was CLEAR that this business is about God. It IS God’s. When I’m struggling majorly with my doubts, gosh, HE is the one who ultimatley brings me peace. Because HE has provided everything in our business up to this point + I know He will continue to do so as long as He is calling us to LOVE + SERVE our amazing couples!!! I also know that He somehow times those loves notes to be sent to me when I need them : ) To Him be the glory – not us.
My hope + prayer is that this note of encouragement would bring strength + hope to those who need it today! Remember, we are NOT alone in this!! If there is anything WE can do for YOU – please reach out!!! Pouring, pouring, pouring out love to you all today!!! <3